chill out

don't think too much

the more you think the more pimples on your face !

haha
so chill out =D

-____-

you know what , recently i am really tired
and stress too
i feels worst with my result
i got a lot pressure

about study , money , love

err , i guess

i don't know
i can't find back the old me
the old tan pei teng
where is it

the old of me
is really committed in her study and everything

and now i only know play , play , play !

Mango MNG

woo hoo


i am a big fans of Mango MNG and i am proud of it

=D

suck =((

err , you know what my exam result is really really suck !

bm - 75
maths - 73
science - 68
geografi - 66
english - 66
sejarah - 44
khb - 56

very worst is it ? ya , this is the first time i got worst result like this and this is also the last time !

kylie , go go go !
you can do it !
=D

i love you =D

OMG , i love you Trey Songz =D . you are too smart . you are really cute and awesome you know it . woo hoo , your voices is really make me faint . wow wow , i love you =D . yeah ! i love you Trey Songz .


byebye

Pharrell

Williams =(( .

i am sorry :)

the way i express myself

people can't change me and i don't change people . i am just who i am . i do whatever i want to . nobody can stop me and nobody can force me . so , mind your own business . i do appreciate what i have and what i got . people don't blame me for things that happen . it is not my fault . i do what i think that is correct . i don't like and i don't let people to control me . so , Back Off please . don't ever try to make a mess with me , if not for the rest you will blame yourself for did it . i never let people to make me down . i only do the things that i want . before i did it , i have think a lots bout the effect behind of it =D .

gone

everything is gone now . no more chances for me . i have waiting for my whole life , now everything seriously is gone . no more hope . so i just hope that you would be happy . =(( .

none

when i say it , i really mean it ! so , please trust me . i only tell the truth . especially when it is about feelings . yeah , say Aah :D

birthday !

today is my besties syaza jefri big day >_< . her birthday okayy 10 March , sweet fifteen . wishing her all the best in her big day . syaza , i wish you got a flying colour result in your coming PMR . and and don't forget leave a slices of chocolate cake for me :D . hehe . you have promise me . hahaaahahahaaha .

speak out

lets me drop in out
i never thought that
i won't forget you
drown in your memory

feels you in my way
feels you in my touch
won't it be too easy
for me to decide it

all the things that begin
just lets it end out
but would it happen again

i can't fight for this love anymore
no no no no no
once ever again
lets you drop to my mind

just go away from my life
i don't need you anymore
trust me believe me
and i still think of you

wonder if the sun
will ever come out once again
to show me its shine
just like you

you makes me wonder
if i ever ever ever
gets your love before
in the shine of our love

and you makes me wonder
with the truth in your heart
that have been hided so long
if you ever be mine

it's all over .

seeing the way you treats me
really make me hurt
seeing you walk away from me
but i can't do anything

maybe it is true
you was not made for me
i am not good enough to be yours
you won't be mine anymore

lets start a new chapter
lets the memory past away
blow by the wind
follow my broken pieces of heart

i never regret for all this happen
without a sincere heart
nothing gonna be

your smile , your voices
really make me uncomfortable
i can't even forget the way you smile on me

but don't ever turn back
the thing that have pass
just lets it pass away
through its direction

lets the memory pass
erased from our moments
lets all of it over

we are gonna end here
it is over

when you're gone .

i always needed time
on my own
i never thought i'd
need you there when i cried

and the days feel like
years when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see
how much i need you right now

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart
are missing you

when you're gone
the face i came to
know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear
to always get me through
the day
and make it okay

i miss you
i've never felt this way before
everything that i do
reminds me of you

and the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you
i love the things that you do

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see
how much i need you right now

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart
are missing you

when you're gone
the face i came to
know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear
to always get me
through the day

and make it okay
i miss you
we were made for each other
out here forever

i know we were
yeah yeah
all i ever wanted was
for you to know
everything i do
i give my heart and soul

i can hardly breathe
i need to feel
you here with me

yeah

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart
are missing you

when you're gone
the face i came to
know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear
will always get me
through the day

and make it okay
i miss you

over it .

i'm over your lies
and i'm over your games
i'm over you asking me
when you know
i'm not okay

you call me at night
and i pick up the phone
and though you've been telling me
i know you're not alone

oh
thats why your eyes
i'm over it
your smile
i'm over it

realize
i'm over it
i'm over it
i'm over

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't
no way to be

how i feel
read my lips
because
i'm so over

moving on
it's my time
you never were a friends
of mine

hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
so over it

i'm over your hands
and i'm over your mouth
trying to drag me down
and fill me with self-doubt

oh
and thats why
your words
i'm over it
so sure
i'm over it

i'm not your girl
i'm over it
i'm over it
i'm over

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't
no way to be

how i feel
read my lips
because
i'm so over

moving on
it's my time
you never were a friends of
mine

hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
so over it

i'm so over it

don't call
don't come by
ain't no use
don't ask me why

you'll never change
there will be no more
crying in the rain

oooohhhh

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't
no way to be

how i feel
read my lips
because
i'm so over

moving on
it's my time
you never were a friends of
mine

hurt a first
a little bit
but now i'm so over

so over it
i'm so over it
i'm over it

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't
no way to be

how i feel
read my lips
because
i'm so over

moving on
it's my time
you never were a friend of
mine

hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over

so over it

big big world :D

i'm a big big girl
in a big big world

it's not a big big thing
if u leave me
but i do do feel

that i do do will
miss u much
miss u much

i can see the first
leafs falling
it's all yellow and nice

it's so very cold outside
like the way i'm
feeling inside

i'm a big big girl
in a big big world

it's not a big big thing
if u leave me
but i do do feel
that i do do will

miss u much
miss u much

outside it's no raining
and tears are falling
from my eyes

why did it have to
happen
why did it all have to
end

i'm big big girl
in a big big world

it's not a big big thing
if u leave me
but i do do feel
that i do do will

miss u much
miss u much

i have your arms
around me
warm like fire

but when i open my eyes
your gone

i'm a big big girl
in a big big world

it's not a big big thing
if u leave me
but i do do feel
that i do do will

miss u much
miss u much

i'm a big big girl
in a big big world

it's not a big big thing
if u leave me

but i do
feel i will

miss u much
miss u much

byebye :D

byebye . no more 2nd chances for you . bye , bye , bye , bye , bye . you really hurted me . i unable to wait for you anymore . this time i really unable to do that anymore . i can't . i have tried it so hard . but this time i really won't ever give you 2nd chances anymore . i won't hoping for you anymore . no more you . just lets the memory past away . i won't think bout you anymore . and i won't got any special feelings towards you anymore . remember , you have destroys the last chances that i give you . so no more 2nd chances for you . this time the hurt is really deep , cannot put a plaster on it anymore . i really can't do it . once again , bye bye .

interest >_< .

wow , i am really interested with estate and property . seems like it were so fun i guess . my future job will be as a professional valuer or property manager or property consultant or maybe as a real estate agent . well this all type of job quite suit me well .

actually i got feels like want to be a lawyer too since i love to talk . but after a few factors , i have reject it as my ambition . to be a lawyer is not as easy as i thought . so , estate and property is still the best choices i guess .

Suntikan Imunisasi Tetanus Toxide ? i don't want . it is really pain . i don't want to be injected . a few days after the injection , i gonna be suffer . why must us get the injection ? . no need la . i scare the doctor haven give me the injection , i have shouted !

i am sick =(( .

today my mood is not really good . at the beginning we are just fine . after that , something so nonsense have happened . you push me away and you shouted on me . i am really hurted . you never do that to me . but fine i can understand you :D . i don't blame you . just i hope you can take the time and make yourself feel more comfortable .


i am really really tired . have to face the book everyday . people looks at me seems like i got no problem but deep inside only i know it very well .

challenge makes us stronger :D .

babe seriously try to take it easy :D . i know it is quite hard but challenge makes us Stronger . don't too think bout it . i don't know what have the bastard did to you but when you have ready to tell me , you will . rite , ya i am confident with you . don't worry , i will always be there for you . nothings is gonna let you down ya . try your best . >_< .

education & career :D

Faculty of the Built Environment

Bachelor of estate management

• professional valuer
• property consultant
• property manager
• real estate agent

i think this kind of career quite suit me well :D

Monster :D

don't call me Gaga
i've never seen one
like that before
don't look at me
like that
you amaze me

he ate my heart
he a-a-ate my heart
( you little monster )

he ate my heart
he a-a-ate my heart out
( you amaze me )

look at him
look at me
that boy is bad
and honestly
he's a wolf in disguise
but i can't stop staring in those evil eyes

i asked my girlfriends if she'd seen you round
before
she mumbled something while we got down on
the floor baby
we might've fucked not really sure
don't quite recall
but something tells me that i've have seen him ,yeah

that boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
that boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
that boy is a monster
er-er-er-er

he ate my heart
( i love that girl )
he ate my heart
( wanna talk to her , she's hot as hell )

he licked his lips
said to me
girl you look good enough to eat
put his arms around me
said " boy now get your paws right off me "

i ask my girlfriend if she'd seen you
round before
she mumbled something while we got
down on the floor baby
we might've fucked not really sure ,
don't quite recall
but something tells me that i've seen him , yeah

that boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
that boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
that boy is a monster
er-er-er-er

he ate my heart
( i love that girl )
he ate my heart
( wanna talk to her , she's hot as hell )

he ate my heart
he ate my heart
instead he's a monster in my bed

i wanna Just Dance
but he took me home instead
uh oh ! there was a monster in my bed
we french kissed on a subway train
he tore my clothes right off

he ate my heart the he ate my brain
uh oh uh oh
( i love that girl )
( wanna talk to her , she's hot as hell )

that boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
( could i love him ? )

that boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
( could i love him ? )
that boy is a monster
er -er-er-er

touch the sky :D

people , do remember once you cheated then you won't be believe anymore . so you would be labeled as a LIAR . so don't ever do that , if not you are going to regret for it . and i hate a Liar . people who cheat me once then i am not going to believe you anymore . seems like i am talking some rubbish here . but this is my blog , none of you business at all . don't be too busybody like my classmates . she is Suck for your information . we all are trying to find some chances to bully her . pity on her .

my Maths is totally SUCK . it is too hard for me . i am not even interested with Maths .


i am gonna wait until 10 march , the last chances :D . hope that it would be a best lasting - ever memory .

Think of it ya >_< .

• thanks GOD because still let me live in this wonderful world .
• Family - thanks too . thanks my grandparents because you take care of me very well . grandpa , thank you so much because you trying to give me all the best . grandma , i love you too . you take care of me very well . i won't forget you . without my parents , i won't born in this world . thanks my parents because have hardly take care me since i was born . my brothers and sister so sorry if i was often scolding you all . it is all for your good . sorry , i scold you all because i got my own reasons .
• Friends - thank you so much too . you all always be with me , lee wai fong ( 14 feb ) , nurul syaza afiqah bt jefri ( 10 march ) , cho siew chia ( 5 april ) , loo yin sze ( 11 april ) , yap jin suang ( 12 june ) , yeap li ying ( 25 july ) . thanks all of you . thanks for always share the happiness and the sadness with me . i admit sometimes i do got a bad bad attitude , but thanks because you all always understanding me . be with me whatever had happened . i do have a great great times with you all .
  
• education - i am trying all my best to do well in examination . career - my future career by God-willing will be the best .
• love - seems like i am still not ready or i am still not good enough to deserve it .
  
• luxury - i am not really need luxury but if i can have it that is good , thanks God . if i got it , i would like to share it with the one who need it . Sharing is Caring :D .
  

the most important things for me >_< .

Importants ! >_<

• GOD
• Health
• Family & Friends
• Education & Career
• Love
• Luxury
  

these all is the most importants things in my life ,
i can't lose even one of it :D .

Last Chances :D .

i am gonna to give you a week more , the last chances . so , the rest of my life is STUDY . ya , study . seriously among of the things study is the most important things . i would like to success in my life , the best one not only simple successful . yeah , so what is i am gonna do is trying concentrate in the class and try to understand what are my teacher teaching . and i think i should think back carefully what i want to be in future . or what i want to study in future . about psychology ? because i am quite interested with this kind of study . or maybe business management ? or ? errr , i am not really sure . but in my future , i want drive a big car , stay in a big house , wearing all branded clothes and doing charity for sure . i want to help the orphans and the old folks . they are really poor . i am pity on them . i should be happy because i am still living with my family , i still can meet my family everyday . seeing them smile is the most wonderful things in my life . maybe my life is not really perfect or i am not really rich . but to some people who is trying to show me how rich is them , or wanna show off their property to me , so sorry . i am not gonna be jealous because for your information , before this i am from a super rich family too . my grandpa is a successful businessman and my family got everythings we want . even my grandpa have a few of company owns by our family too . and my dad driving a Mazda sport car that is not cheap at all . but after a few years later , we are drop down . and sorry sorry i am not trying to show off what i have before this just i want to give myself a lessons . but it is okay , i don't mind with all this luxury . because not everyone needed to live in luxury if without a health . health is more more more important than all this luxury . without health how you want to enjoy these luxury if you got it . i can work harder to get a better life in the future :D .

F H _ _ 's dedication ?

I felt so nice since I m in love with u
When all of a sudden you were sent from above
It happened so suddenly I didn't know what to do
I couldn't believe my eyes ,was this really true
There are so many things that I want to say
I don't know where to start, I just hope you stay


My heart bleeds, drops of blood for your love You are my addiction, you are my drug
I get so High when your around
You are my Heroin, I don't ever want to come down
You needled your Love deep inside my vein
When were apart all I feel is pain
So stay with me till death do us part
These tears of love are straight from the heart


huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =(( .

you dedicated this to who ?!! is that for other girls ?!!
i feels like i want to cry . you leave me in a confusing situation .

if i could did it =(( .

if i could ever once again talk with you , just with you . how would it be ? wow , so fun . we begin with nice but we end it ? . erm , does it really have end ? . i don't want . i am still hoping for you . you are MINE . OMG , i really hope got one day we will get back as usual . i miss you . i didn't got the chance to talk with you for almost a week . even only one week but it really made me suffer . i still got a lot and a lot of things want to talk with you . you are my only ONE . i never love a boy before until the day i started know you on 25 Nov 09 . i do remember it . whatever things you tell me before i do remember it . you say you like Polo t-shirt because its collar are so nice and you like it . and if i not wrong you are wearing Sean Paul perfume i guess . and almost all the things that is belongs to you is in white colour my dear . and you always send your sister to tuition . wow , how a sweet brother . you are using Maxis Broadband , same with me . i am so happy . and you are using a Toshiba laptop too . i told you bout Replay sings by Iyaz quite a long times ago . but you heard it quite late . it doesn't matter because you still remember it , it is my fav songs . you tell me the song is nice . yeah ! it really nice . and you are really really cute . and i really wanna know how are you now . whether that you are fine or not . have you eaten . what are you doing . have you shower . hehe . how is your study or your work . are you happy . i don't want to see you sad . if you sad then i am sad too :(( . i love you and you are really important to me . if i wonder have you ever think of me ? . i am not interested with any other guys except than you only ! you are so amazing , you are so special too . but i don't know your feelings towards me too . whether is you only treats me as a friends or a lover . but at the end , i wanna tell you that i really love you with my true heart . you only , F H _ _ D_ _ N _ _ F _ _ _ S B _ _ N _ _ R H_ _ Z _ D .

yeah ! swimming :D

yesterday i go swimming , wow so fun . i go with syaza , auntie , baby and bibik . we have a wonderful time together . after swimming , we go for stream bath , sauna and jacuzzi . and syaza is scolding her sister at the jacuzzi . you can't blame her , she just getting angry with her lil sister . and you , i am lil bit getting angry with you . but you ask me to understand you so i am gonna do that . after that , we going for dinner . well , i order farmer omellette but after 30 minutes , the waiter tell me finished so i said chicken chop . then 15 minutes later she say chicken chop finished too . so auntie order mee goreng for us . we don't know it . syaza and i were just sitting on outside and talk talk talk . we talk bout a lot of things . me as usual talk all about F H _ _ . then she talk bout Z , Alien . actually we are planning to cry but we are unable to do that because that was playing CNY songs . then how we want to cry even we are really sad ?

then today at school i am just thinking bout F H _ _ too . then suddenly i throw my pen and scream but not really loud . heee . i turn back look at jin suang and she ask me why ? what happen ? i say nothings just stress . actually the reason is F H _ _ make me feels stress . i am really tired . but i am not gonna give up on him . he is MINE .